Heck I'll be there!!!
Living in the shadow of a pedophile most of my life,
scarred for life,
battling suicide thoughts since forever...
but more recently since 2006 when I found myself confronted to "the man"...
I've been trying to shed the past and lead my own life,
(hence the change in my legal name...),
hoping to leave the bottle behind [eventually]...
If 2012 proved to be a step in the right direction,
it also meant stumbling and falling down flat on my face,
(now facing bankruptcy...),
but rather than giving up,
I will face up to whatever is coming.
If I thought I would be dead like 15-20 years ago,
(looks like my sexual behavior didn't provide me with the slow suicide I was hoping for...),
it seems Fate has decided otherwise.
I may be alone right now,
bereft of all my friends,
either too far or too busy,
but suicide is the last thing on my mind,
even if I'm hurting right now,
how eager I felt to leave this world before,
and now that things are really shitty,
I'm willing to hang on...
One big mystery!!
All I can say say right now is,
You haven't seen the last of me yet!!
My life anthem,
or so it would seem...
I would find it rather ironic to die in 2013
while I am now hoping to live on...